Thursday, July 24, 2014

Learning to like being alone

I do not do alone well.  I never have.  When I was single and living in PA and had no friends to speak of, I absolutely hated the weekends when I did not work.  I knew going into this trip that for the first 2 weeks before Stephanie joined me, I would be spending the vast bulk of my time alone.  The kids are in school about 12 hours a day.  Both eat then go straight to homework/bed when they get home.  Although fun, the program is physically and mentally exhausting. Neither wants to engage much in the evenings.  I respect and appreciate that as I am the same way during the first few weeks of a new school year.  I appreciate the need to process everything.  I appreciate the need for alone time.

I wondered how I would handle this time.  Quite frankly, it scared the crap out of me to think about it.  The first few days were tough but I have surprised myself with how quickly I have adapted.  I take daily walks around the neighborhood in the morning before the heat and humidity get unbearable.  The only television in the house is in the master bedroom.  I thought I would be spending a lot of time up there.  Surprisingly, I have not.  I am actually enjoying the quiet time.  I have stitched.  A lot!! I have read.  A lot!! I have napped  A lot!! The only thing I have not done is written.  I have spent many hours working out the details of my story in my head.  I feel that I am very close to the time in the process where I will put words on paper, but I am not there yet.

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